Sunday, 21 October, 2007

I m back...


my work is done and i am back
back to my white kingdom of stark white sand

more tired and tattered than i was before
more tired and tattered in body and soul

emptied and defeated i stand here again
pouring out my emptiness into my empty hole

defeated by my principles my beliefs my hopes
sold out by my honesty sold out by my soul

poorer in ideals poorer in respect
poorer in trust..yeah, poorer still

yet richer in experience in the lessons of life
a shrewder person..a better one..??..i don't know..

with new friends and new foes
and newer pretensions, a few masks more

i am back to my kingdom to share myself anew

i am back to my sand dunes of shifting views..

15 comments:

Eternal Optimista said...

Welcome back Queen bee..
I'm sure your kingdom is rejoicing.. Keep writing..

And don't think, it's the end.. It's just the beginning.. there are more wars to fight.. more battles to be won..

Wish you luck.

SUni.

Sameera said...

There are moments when we all feel the same.Life keeps showing its different faces again and again.What a contrast from the previous post!Good one :)

umangexuberance said...

@suni di
thanks..i hope my white sands are swirling up making way for my myriad jottings :D

DestinyFavChild said...

shifting sands

Change...everything thing changes..people...situations...circumstances...newer challenges...yet life goes on...C'est la Vie !!

Gonecase said...

Apna naam saarthak karo, that's all I have to say

umangexuberance said...

@sameera..yes the many faces of life..the many contrasts n contradictions..

umangexuberance said...

@destinyfavchild
true neel true..life goes on..

umangexuberance said...

@gonecase
hmmm
mera naam..meri pehchaan ni..wo mera aina ni..main uska aks ni
wo to bas ik naam h..ek shabd
ek parchai..aur kuch ni..

Gonecase said...

naam aaina nahi hota kisi ka, aks ka koi astitva nahi hota, sarthakta hai us shabd ki, kyunki shabd ka arth hota hai

umangexuberance said...

@shabd kya h?
wo jo hum use bnate hn
arth kya h?
wo jo arth hum usme dhunte hn
naam bhi wahi h..ik shabd..ik arth..
jiski sarthikta hum se h..
wo hmare arthon se judi h
hmare nazariye se bani h

PS sowwy my hindi is not very good so if i have used some wrong or inapt words or have not been able to make my meaning very clear..please understand :)

Gonecase said...

Its not about language you use, its the meaning they convey that matters

Gonecase said...

Nazariye ka khud koi astitva nahi hai, nazariya banta hai us gyaan se jo aapko doosron se milta hai, jo doosron ke nazariye se prerit hota hai. Bhasha is bandhan se pare hai, wo ajar hai, nazariye ka astitva aadmi ke astitva se juda hai, bandha hai

humbl devil said...

those shifting sand dunes make life more interesting...
:)

umangexuberance said...

@gonecase
hmmm..go ur point
but that's exactly what i meant..it is not about living up to my name..just because my name is umang, exuberance doesn't mean my viewpoint has to be exuberant and hopeful ever..i could be as prone to depression and heartache as anyone else..

umangexuberance said...

@humbl devil
aaah yes..completely agree..shifting sand dunes that drift away..leaving a faint memoy of their stay.. :)