Tuesday, 13 November, 2007

away..


I am going away for a while..away from everything
i need a break from all that's familiar
yes..even this..my world my kingdom my hell
i don't know when I'll be back..
could be tomorrow..the day after..the week after..or may be never
i don't know
not a thing
not what i am feeling
not what is going on around me or within me
not how i am reacting or how i should
not what i am writing or why
nothing

so i am off..to sit alone on some lonely bridge to trudge unnoticed on some lonely path
try to get back the connection with myself..to get back to being alone yet not lonely..to find myself again..

my solitude calls..take care

30 comments:

humbl devil said...

you not gonna contradict yourself this time???
:D
be well...

maverick said...

well...i jus have one thing to say..its a dialogue from the movie Rocky Balboa...

u knw who u r ..the part of u thats so ful of life..u ve got the feeling..the fire...u ve this opportunity..so do it...y not..this is who u r...this is who u ll always be..and it doesnt matter how it looks to other people...all that matters is how it looks to u...how it looks to u...and if this is something u want to do..and this is something u gotta do..then u do it..fighters fight....

Gonecase said...

Will wait to see what you got out of it

umangexuberance said...

@humbl devil...contradict..well not really..i am back a little earlier than i or anyone else expected..but it was impossible to stay away :)

umangexuberance said...

@maverick
thanks that was really inspiring
actually i was getting the feeling that the part of me that was alive wasn't breathing anymore
and that is why i had to go looking for it...
but now i am back..

maverick said...

@umang...wb...well we all live another day to tel the story of yesterday....so wen the alive part of u gets tht non breathy feeling...then go out n get all the breath u want..ie..if u like jogging...jog for a km or two...if u like strolling..go for a walk during the rush hrs..u ll see life moving...if u like eating..go to ur favourite eating joint n ve the food u like...etc etc... and as the bacardi ad goes "life is calling"

umangexuberance said...

@gonecase
i got my perspective a little back in place..
got a chance to realise what i had been reduced to..writing nothing but hopeless sad poems on my blog
moving around like a zombie
putting not only myself but all the people who care about me through hell..a fallen person with no self-esteem
i have changed into all that i had ever despised in people
well..now that i have realised this..its time to again revive the old umang and it is with this realization that i m back :)

umangexuberance said...

@maverick..lolz
wll thats exactly what i did
i couldn't sit in class so just bunked and went out getting lost in random streets...will write about it soon :)

maverick said...

@umang..will wait for ur post...hope the randomness brought abt some good things for u :)

Sameera said...

We all feel that need to get away from "the kingdom" many a time in life,par kya kare attachment aur responsibility jo rokte hai.Sigh!

No matter where you go,do keep up the great writing!Take care dear,God Bless!

P.S.I will wait for the "lighter" one you promised,no matter how long it takes :)

umangexuberance said...

@maverick..aah well i wouldn't say i am heeled but the magic has begun :)

umangexuberance said...

@sameera
hey!
well yes sometimes there is this sudden urge to drop everything and run away with no one but myself..
thanks i will take care..you too take care :)

P.S. you won't have to wait for too long..i am already writing something :)

maverick said...

@umang..so lets see the magic show :)

umangexuberance said...

@maverick
lolzzz
well its starting to show to me :)
lets c how long it takes to show to the rest of the world :)

maverick said...

@umang...thats great if its showing to u....the world will get to knw on its own :)

FireWhisky said...

hey umang... i hope ur bettr nw...

umangexuberance said...

@maverck
haha
i hope it lasts
i don't feel like being lost agn for a while nw was sick of all tht :D

umangexuberance said...

@firewhisky
yes i am much better :)
take care :)

maverick said...

@umang...dont think abt n talk abt that self of urs...ve u seen jab we met?well if u have..then think of the scene where shahid convinces kareena to abuse ...or if u havent then go see it... :) off for mah jog now..cya in an hr or so :)

umangexuberance said...

@maverick
aah yes have watched the movie and loved that scene
trust me i have already put it to use and it works!! :D
though my guy didn't come back running still.. it felt great to let out how i had been made to feel :)

and ya c'ya soon and thanks for being such a great encourager..its happy to know blogging has given me such great new friends :)

Reeta Skeeter said...

hmmm....take care ji :)

maverick said...

@umang...glad u consider me as a frnd now!!...

umangexuberance said...

@reeta
jee memsaab :D

umangexuberance said...

@maverick
thanks
i am glad too :)

maverick said...

@umang...great....so still plannin to stick this mode of communicating or plan to move to someother mode??

umangexuberance said...

@maverick..i think this mode is working well enough for the time being :)

Gonecase said...

Revival, a simple word with difficult implementation, my wishes 1

umangexuberance said...

@gonecase
aaaah yes..it is, but then difficult doesn't mean impossible :)

thanks :)

Gonecase said...

Yes, ofcourse ! I love the Adidas punchline "Impossible is nothing"...that's what I am !

and welcome :)

umangexuberance said...

@gonecase
really??
and i love the proverb.."the word impossible is in the dictionary of fools" :)

an what are u?? nothing?? ;) impossible?? ;)
aah i c :P