Tuesday 6 November 2007

Still..Stagnant..Lost..Dead


Still
Stagnant
Lost
Dead

Last night i died again
killed by the same sword as before

Pierced
Defeated
Helpless
Damned

On the ground i see myself bleeding
the red turning to black in the gorging mud
Lost in dust it flows.. Unnoticed.. Unfelt.. Unmourned

Empty
Slaughtered
Neglected
Strewn

Punished for sins i never committed
Doomed to burn in this eternal fire of persecution
Slain by my God.. my Angel.. my Guardian

Stoned
Blacked out
Bound
Buried

Wings clipped anew
Crashed before I could fly
Burnt to cinders by this cold sun
Frozen to stone by this unforgiving earth

Back to the end
Back to no-escape
Unable to lock away, my doomed chest

End..end..this pain shall never
killing me again and again
sucking out my breath

Locking me in time
unable to move on

No answer
One question

that haunts me forever
bound in mid-stride
I am..

Still
Stagnant
Lost
Dead

30 comments:

Ashu said...

Pretty painful girl. It really pained me to see this post. Take care. All d be fine.

Hugzzz

Vinni said...

:-| pretty pretty pretty surreal. but really liked the selection of words. thought provoking.
for what its worth, take care.

vinni

maverick said...

@umang....

that haunts me forever
bound in mid-stride
I am..

Still
Stagnant
Lost
Dead

but far away at the end of the road.
theres a flickering light...
which tells me..
theres a going to be a beautiful day after this night...

one answer..
so many questions....
u have to be

strong
brave
cheerful and
alive


happy diwali

Sameera said...

Haunting poem...Cheer up sweetie,smile!!!Hugsss

Gonecase said...

You made me eat back my words about your poems, that's all I have to say.

FireWhisky said...

haunting... n painful 2... u hv2 cheer up sweets... cz ur name's umang... n it means a cheerful ray f hope n dreams... n tats wt u r... [:)] hugs

s.H.a.S.h.I said...

well... i can see.. u r goin thru sum bad phase in ur life... but as u said 'phase' , its just a momentary thing... so cheer up.. never hurts to smile a bit..
well being a doc, can just help by stitching those wounds... hehe :) [p.s- i knw wht u'l say next these wounds cant be stitched :P]
cheer up gal... have a great diwali..

SLAYER said...

this indeed is amazin......simply marvelous....

NEHA CHANDOK!!!!! said...

fab expressions...the very core of existentialism intermingled with pain....

i simply loved it...

the clarity of thoughts is appreciable too...

umangexuberance said...

@ashu
thanks :)
*hugsss*
yes life and its many phases n faces
it has taken on a different persona already :)
i hope the next time i can raise your spirits rather than bring u pain with my words

umangexuberance said...

@vinni
well i have always been attracted to the surreal..the fantastic has lured me away from the world of reality and that is why i dip the nib of my soul into the ink of imagination before splaying it across this screen..but what i write is always honest and true to my heart and life..it is just under a shroud of words..but its all there..

and thanks :)
you too take care

umangexuberance said...

@maverick
really dat was just so sweet..i dunno what to say..i am speechless..really
beautiful would be an understatement
thank you so much :)

umangexuberance said...

@sameera
thnx
and yes i m much beter nw :)
all cheery and living upto my name :)
*huggggs*

umangexuberance said...

@gonecase
really??
wow
i m honoured..thanks :)

umangexuberance said...

@firwhisky
hey baby!
well life has its phases..but i am better now..feel more like living upto my name now :)
*hugsss*
thanks :)

umangexuberance said...

@shashi
well that was damn sweet doctor sahib..but the wounds are already healing..life and its little medication.. :)
and yes as i said above, its al about life and its many phases and faces

and thanks :)

umangexuberance said...

@slayer
thanks..its good to see u liked it.. :)

umangexuberance said...

@neha
thank you so much..that was beautifully analysed :)
pain is the most skillful of creators :)

maverick said...

wel..i hope that u do take a cue from the lines i had to sit n make rhyme...lol

umangexuberance said...

@maverick
yes yes it was very inspiring
but then on the other hand you have inspired me to write some other sad poem so that you can put a happy ending to it ;) :)
but really it was real sweet of u to put in so much effort into it :)

maverick said...

lol...start giving happy endings....im no poet

umangexuberance said...

but you are..you see we are all what different people bring out in us..may be i bring out the poet in you..what say?

maverick said...

lol..probably..if u say so...lol..well more than that u make me work on providing a happy ending...

umangexuberance said...

haha..whatever it might be..i do get your creative juices flowing :)
lolz

maverick said...

just to let u knw..im sumone who picks up on ambigous statements very fast..n floats them arnd for responses...so "creative juices flowing"...lol...

umangexuberance said...

@maverick..well i'll leave it open to interpretation :D

maverick said...

ha ha ha...

Gonecase said...

Ofcourse :) Welcome

chitra said...

that was xcellnt...

umangexuberance said...

@chitra...thanks :)